It seemed sad when my teenage/ university life has gone away. I used to have quite good friends back then, we studied, played and did things together. I had my degree in Singapore and stayed there for almost 4 years (end 2005 - mid 2009). I wanted to work there but since there was a recession, it was hard for foreigners to find job there. I go back to my country and few months later i went to Beijing for language course (end 2009 - early 2011).
Those were the times that i missed.. I really wanted to go back and turn back the time, make things right, and no room for mistakes. One of the things i regretted was that I worked a part time job in Singapore on my third and final years, and therefore my final result was so-so. I wished i never worked part-time, it really affected my friendship and of course, results. During weekends/ days with no class i worked like hell, such as full-time employee plus few hours overtime. But at least the pay was quite good..
One of my quite-close uni friend has married, yet she did not invite me. I dunno whether she had forgot about me or she really did not want me to come to her wedding. Anyway her wedding reception was at the same city i currently live in now. WTH.. :( i was quite sad and it really pissed me off. To tell the truth i seldom keep in contacts with my uni friends. Maybe it was my mistake as well, i hoped i was regarded as a friend by them.
Some of my uni friends found job in Singapore, it was good for them. I wished i could too :( I was too soon to give up and left Singapore since my Student visa was almost expired. As for Beijing friends, some of them are still keep in touch with me and we are having a reunion like last year?
Well, Beijing is not so clean as Singapore, but there is one thing i really like about Beijing. It has winter season and it is snowing!! But i like both of the cities, i can be myself when i am there.. :D
I have worked for more than 2 years now in the same company, to tell the truth i do not really enjoy my current job anymore. The colleagues are kind, job tasks are quite easy, rarely overtime, normal salary, but i am bored with the job tasks. I dunno when i will resign, I wish i could go to Singapore again and find job there.
Now I do not really go out with friends during weekends anymore, sometimes i go out with my family members or boyfriend, but he is also busy and i don't really care about that either. Working, working, working.. I don't even remember myself anymore. Work is the way to ruin friendships and relationships. To married person, it can ruin family life. My objective in this life is not getting married, have kids.. I am not really a family type person. But since my family is Chinese and have traditional thoughts, we all should marry.
I still cannot imagine my future now..
I really enjoy the time when i used to study, play, travel. But is it possible if i do all of them again in the future? i do not think so, except the travelling part. I do not enjoy working especially here, I wish i can go out of the country again someday, even if it is relocation because of work, i will be happy.. Of course i should be happy. I think i am not belong to this country, because my heart is still out there.. ;p
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